It's been a while since I have opened this account I guess...
Ever since I was younger people always tell me how good I am at drawing, and how I should take up fine arts for college so that I could develop those skills, My parents would buy me paper and art materials just so I could draw to my heart's content. Whenever I draw I feel like I could express everything in my mind that I couldn't say verbally. Each character,landscape and scenes I drew portrayed the creativeness of my young mind.
I loved drawing.
But as I grew older I realized that drawing isn't anything more than a hobby for me. I have grown quiet tired of it...I feel like as I age another year I drift more and more away from the world of art. I have always thought that it maybe just art block or that maybe I am just lazy; But it wasn't like that. Whenever I try to draw I just feel tired and weak and all of my drawings look ugly and wrong. I felt as though the magic that drawing once had faded away.
And that I made a big mistake by taking up Fine Arts for college.
Now the whole point of this journal entry isn't to say that I am quitting this account or that I am leaving university...I just wanted to let out all this feelings of frustration and stress, For all I know this maybe just a phase. I can't just quit after I have gone too far I know that. I was the one who chose this route and I have to face reality that there are some things that should have been thought of seriously.
But if I were given a chance to pick another route in life...I would take it.
And so ends my rambling and venting...I really haven't been productive this few months so I probably won't be submitting any deviation anytime soon, specially since my laptop hasn't been fixed. Yeah I know it's a new year and I should be happy about it but I don't know.
AWGAWD I hate being this sentimental and emotional...anyway thank you for reading mentlegen